May 2013
21 posts
New job
Pats new job is working at a construction site as a construction worker. Today he went back after taking two weeks off because of his injury. He was okay at first but then he started being all moody and stuff. While I was in school, I tried texting him as much as I could but I guess it wasnt enough. By the time I got home he was really mad saying that I never text him when I’m free. It was obvious...
I need an attitude change.
What would I do. What would I do with my life without you. I’ve been so scared to admit it, to admit defeat. But I just can’t hold it in anymore. I can’t see myself without you, ever. But I don’t want to be the one holding on when you’re trying to let go. I’m afraid of myself. Of what ill do. I can’t trust myself anymore if I’m not with you.
I’m scared to death of losing you.
You can continue messing with guys and playing with them and pretending like you’re not doing anything… But can’t you choose any other guy? If a guy asks you on a fcking date so act oblivious and say oh no he doesn’t like me. He OBVIOUSLY is interested so get that through your thick skull and stop being so promiscuous. It’s not cute at all.
Also, why does it have to...
Why do you have to make so many guys like you and then just leave them in the dust and start hating them? It’s so wrong…
April 2013
35 posts
It just hurts to know how things could just be over like that…
its 2am and im still up and i havent written a single line of the junior thesis that was DUE TODAY. i didnt even go to school. fuck my life. seriously fuck me.
Btw I’m typing this on my new iPad that pat bought me… Smh. Wonder if he’s tryna bribe me lool
Yesterday was 420. There was so many parties going on yesterday… I decided not to go and spent the night at pats house. Will invited me to a party in lefrak… No way I was gonna go. I feel bad though because I always turn him down.
Kenneth was also having a party at his house. A lot of heads went. Kai was there… I really wanted to go to this one so I asked pat if he wanted to go....
I guess ill try again.
Will you fight for me ?
I guess all promises get broken
You said you’d never give up…
I’ve spent alot of time with people that didnt even deserve a second.
The worst part is when you’re so in love with someone but you just can’t be with them.
It's not what you look at that matters.
It’s what you s e e.
I miss you so much but I have to stay strong. If you loved me, you’d prove it. If you loved me, I’d know. But i don’t… So show me.
"God puts people in your life for a reason, and...
Please say no. Please say no. Please say no. Please, I beg you, just fight for me.
I’m scared. Terrified. Angry. Hurt. But why is it that I’ve become so good at hiding my emotions? How has it come to the point where I seem to be numb and defenseless against everything that hurts me? Why is it that I dont like to show people I care? Is it because I’m afraid they won’t care back? Is it because Im so used to this cruel world that I know that no matter how...
I hate girls who sit there in wallow in self-pity. I hate girls who think they’re superior to everyone else. I also hate girls who do both. It’s such bullshit if you’re going to complain about yourself not being good enough or being too this and too that. Why don’t you stop feeling sorry for yourself and make a change in your life… For yourself and for the people...
They say you always hurt the ones you love most.
You must’ve loved me more than anything.
"Your love is like a giant pigeon crapping on my...
"No matter what challenges may carry us apart, we...
I feel invisible in school. No one notices me. No one thinks about me. No one asks how my day is. No one stops to converse. No one c a r e s.
I don’t like drinking anymore… It doesn’t even numb the pain.
Can't stop thinking about you...
